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Nov. 29th, 2009 | 07:07 pm
mood: 
melancholy
music: Cat Power - Sea of Love
I really wish for the best, for you. That is all I want. For you to smile again. We all know that the day will come, where we can look back and smile, not because it's over, but because it happened.
Be strong and everything will be fine in the end.
Be strong and everything will be fine in the end.
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105
Nov. 17th, 2009 | 02:21 am
mood: lonely
I feel emptier than I've felt in a really long time. Problem is that I don't know what is missing. I don't know what to do about my life and I feel miserable. Do you know that? I feel so empty.
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104
Nov. 6th, 2009 | 03:03 am
mood: depressed
Nothing particular happened, but I feel damn suicidal. I feel that I'm going nowhere. I'm going nowhere. I feel so miserable.
Help me.
Help me.
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103
Oct. 15th, 2009 | 01:04 am
mood: 
calm
Jealousy is indeed a green eyed monster.
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101
Aug. 27th, 2009 | 03:15 am
mood: 
sick
music: Katy Perry - I Kissed A Girl
Hello to whoever, which is probably nobody,
I had an episode today. But wait. Today is already like.. Thursday because it's past midnight. So technically, I had an episode yesterday.
So I was in the train and I was about 2 stops away from City Hall when I suddenly felt sick. Like seriously sick. All of a sudden. Strange, I know. My stomach suddenly started hurting very badly, I felt like throwing up, my heart started beating really fast, my chest felt tight, I was breathless and I started feeling really giddy. I immediately threw my book back into my bag and struggled to feel alright. I felt like just letting myself fall into the floor of the cabin and just simply plant myself there till I felt fine again. But I could not and would not do that. I then forced myself to pull through the next 2 stops till I got out of the train to find a seat in City Hall. When the doors opened, I just rushed forward, walking into people as I swayed to my right and left like a drunkard. I suddenly felt that I was just seeing white and my hearing seemed to decrease by 50% or something. I almost fainted basically. I stumbled and fell onto one of those metal seats and i bent down to look at my feet and I started breaking out in cold sweat. Still in pain and still feeling faint.
Never have I fainted or felt faint before. This is scary in a way. I can't actually tell you how horribly terribly lousy I was feeling. I almost wanted to just lay on the floor and roll into a ball till I felt better. Almost.
This is very upsetting I don't know why.
Goodnight.
I had an episode today. But wait. Today is already like.. Thursday because it's past midnight. So technically, I had an episode yesterday.
So I was in the train and I was about 2 stops away from City Hall when I suddenly felt sick. Like seriously sick. All of a sudden. Strange, I know. My stomach suddenly started hurting very badly, I felt like throwing up, my heart started beating really fast, my chest felt tight, I was breathless and I started feeling really giddy. I immediately threw my book back into my bag and struggled to feel alright. I felt like just letting myself fall into the floor of the cabin and just simply plant myself there till I felt fine again. But I could not and would not do that. I then forced myself to pull through the next 2 stops till I got out of the train to find a seat in City Hall. When the doors opened, I just rushed forward, walking into people as I swayed to my right and left like a drunkard. I suddenly felt that I was just seeing white and my hearing seemed to decrease by 50% or something. I almost fainted basically. I stumbled and fell onto one of those metal seats and i bent down to look at my feet and I started breaking out in cold sweat. Still in pain and still feeling faint.
Never have I fainted or felt faint before. This is scary in a way. I can't actually tell you how horribly terribly lousy I was feeling. I almost wanted to just lay on the floor and roll into a ball till I felt better. Almost.
This is very upsetting I don't know why.
Goodnight.
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97
Jul. 17th, 2009 | 02:13 pm
mood: 
blah
Ni hao,
I'm in class now. I'm bored. I need to eat some sweets or drink green tea. I miss green tea. I need green tea in a bottle. We're having some class consultation critic nonsense. I am not very tired today. It is amazing. I am not done with my work but I'm quite keen on doing it. Coolness. Why? I don't know why. I just feel so.
I like meows.
I wanna runaway from class soon.
Ciaoxz.
I'm in class now. I'm bored. I need to eat some sweets or drink green tea. I miss green tea. I need green tea in a bottle. We're having some class consultation critic nonsense. I am not very tired today. It is amazing. I am not done with my work but I'm quite keen on doing it. Coolness. Why? I don't know why. I just feel so.
I like meows.
I wanna runaway from class soon.
Ciaoxz.
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96
Jul. 14th, 2009 | 01:21 am
mood: bored
I quite certain that I'm problem child, full of angst, with anger management issues.
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95
Jul. 13th, 2009 | 01:44 pm
mood: 
grumpy
I'm sitting in class right now, feeling god damn damn damn damn damn damn sick of school. so many things that I need to do. So many things. So little time. So little time because I procrastinate, because I'm too tired to get started. I want a break, as always. I think I need a break. Also, I cannot help but to feel rather angry because of school today. But I won't talk about it. I want to eat something nice and have a freaking lot of sleep. I'm going to runaway from class now.
Ciao.
Ciao.
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94
Jun. 30th, 2009 | 03:02 am
mood: calm
I am tired and the thought of going to school makes me a little sick. I feel so distant from so many things. Lately, I've been wanting to do this, to do that, but I never get anything done. Sometimes, the future scares me.
Sometimes, I think that I think about stuff too much. Maybe that is not good. Maybe it is. I don't really know. Sometimes I feel small and insignificant. Sometimes. I feel the need to accomplish certain things, but why are they never achieved?
Sometimes I wish that there was a little more time everyday, a little more reasons to be happy, a little more thrill..
But as I exhaust my time pondering about these thoughts, life's clock is ticking away, leaving me behind.
Sometimes, I think that I think about stuff too much. Maybe that is not good. Maybe it is. I don't really know. Sometimes I feel small and insignificant. Sometimes. I feel the need to accomplish certain things, but why are they never achieved?
Sometimes I wish that there was a little more time everyday, a little more reasons to be happy, a little more thrill..
But as I exhaust my time pondering about these thoughts, life's clock is ticking away, leaving me behind.
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91
Jun. 7th, 2009 | 02:07 am
mood: amused
Sometimes, I like growing virtual crops.
Goodnight unicorns.
Goodnight unicorns.